To all of the spammers and scammers (assuming you are not bots) who are leaving anonymous comments on my last open post -- anonymous comments are screened, so no one is seeing them, and I AM deleting them anyway.
I am currently re-listening to The Magnus Archives for the fourth or fifth time because I have about 2 hours left of CritRole 2.26 and I just can't even (plus, I made a new friend a couple of weekends ago and Friday night we spent two solid hours geeking out about TMA over messenger)
And I finally got to play in my friends' Pathfinder game yesterday. It was extremely fun and now it's two weeks before I get to do it again. Damn you, the holidays.
Wednesday I'm scheduled for an MRI of my biliary system and I am extremely nervous about it. My EGD went fine at least, except that it didn't really show anything conclusive so I'm just up for... more tests.
Sorry, this is turning into my old livejournal where I just word vomit about whatever's been happening to me lately.
It's been four months now since I lost Flame. A fellow sufferer on the pet loss support group list I joined posted a really brilliant piece a few days ago that is a mirror of how I feel. In many ways, my life is a lot easier now... and yet I would trade that without a moment's hesitation in order to have just a little more time. I'm crying a little as I write this, which always happens when I try to write about this loss; and yet I can recognize that it's not as acute. She's receding from me, and in a way it's like losing her all over again. On the BPAL forum there is a user with a Stephen King quote in their signature which rings painfully true. "His heart had been broken. And now, all these years later, it seemed to him that the most horrible fact of human existence was that broken hearts mended."
"Love has gone and left me and the days are all alike; Eat I must, and sleep I will,--and would that night were here! But ah!--to lie awake and hear the slow hours strike! Would that it were day again!--with twilight near!
Love has gone and left me and I don't know what to do; This or that or what you will is all the same to me; But all the things that I begin I leave before I'm through,-- There's little use in anything as far as I can see.
Love has gone and left me,--and the neighbors knock and borrow, And life goes on forever like the gnawing of a mouse,-- And to-morrow and to-morrow and to-morrow and to-morrow There's this little street and this little house."
Decided to re-listen to the audiobook of Christopher Moore's 'Fool' the other day and was surprised to realize Euan Morton is the (excellent) narrator. I thought there was a reason I liked the Inquisitor's voice in SWTOR so much.
I think I'm developing a crush on his voice, actually. >.> Currently listening to another audiobook he reads, Guy Gavriel Kay's 'The Lions of Al-Rassan'. It's something of an experiment to check if it's the author or the narrator that left me not particularly enthused with 'Tigana'. The result will determine if I spend my next Audible credit on Kay's 'A Song for Arbonne' or Moore's 'Sacre Bleu' (both, not coincidentally, narrated by Morton XD).
I've also been re-discovering Daria courtesy of Hulu. I bought myself the complete DVD of the series and it came today. Excited! (Even though I'm already up to season 5 on Hulu -- but they don't have the movies up and I didn't own "Is it Fall Yet?")